eszter toth / אסתר טוט
"Few and far between"
(in development)
An installation of a row of small letter boxes containing postcards painted and written to my child.
It might be also done with the postcards placed under magnifying glass, hanging from the ceiling.
The project started in a very banal and pragmatic way. I wanted to change every week the picture on a night lamp that my child got in the kinder garden.
It coincided with a period of me taking up painting again, ( in order to gain some confidence for showing him how to use a brush) therefore revisiting painters and paintings that were once important to me. I wanted every postcard to correspond to a painting or painter, to have some kind of dialog all over again with this medium that I have in practice rejected for a long time.
The format made me think of one of the black rooms of my diploma installation,
(" The disappearance of Urs Kaufmann")
where the narrator sends postcards to this fictitious character and alter ego named Urs Kaufmann, and also the need to communicate somehow to my child (who will read it later in life) the things that I was going through while he was growing up, the things I said to him that he was yet unable to understand about what I knew of life and the period of time he grew up in, the historical present and the past, of his birth place, humans and animals, and so on, in a way to document the first years.
The title reflects not only the little paintings for this project, alas all my working mode.
The themes of these small size paintings follow a slow stream of consciousness.
Their narrative is disjointed. I guess that is why the first one is the butterfly painting, lay the groundwork for this train of thought.
For the messages, I remembered of the postcards Sol LeWitt sent to Eva Hesse, particularly the postcard " DO ", that I wish I have received in time:
"... Just stop...doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, struggling....Stop it and just do. Don't worry about cool. Make your own uncool. Make your own world."
For the moment the paintings are on the scale of a postcard, painted with the help of a magnifying glass, with water colour and tempera.

10x15, water colour and tempera on aquarelle paper

10x15, water colour and tempera on aquarelle paper

10x15, Water colour Based on an article of the New York Times, 2024

10x15, water colour and tempera on aquarelle paper